The One Where We Are On Top of The World

The One Where We Are On Top of The World

It's been one heck of a weekend.  The weekend where I was looking forward to a nice sleep and relax.  Well,  it didn't work out the way I've plan. (It's always like that one-lah!)

My brother celebrated his 19th birthday on Saturday.  Happy birthday to you, may Allah bless you.

Been in an awkward situation thru the weekends.  Sumthing unexpected, sumthing fresh and sumthing challenging.

Been with CINTA the whole weekend.  This time it was rare-relatively different.  We were all out following our heart.  This is our choice. 

Let me enlightened you with our adventure part by part.  It's our roller coaster video-clip of life.

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PART1: 

The journey of this story started out sour as I was scolded for being so selfish.  Yes, I admit I was being one.  I want him all to myself.

"I think I have all the rights to be friends with anyone.  I'm not attached yet.  I'm not ready for comittment.  My total focus is my career."

He needs a plan.  Unfortunately, he had no choice but just to follow what I had to offer.  There he was reluctantly can't decide because I've make the wrong choices.  All I want for him is to be safe, but he's unhappy with my decisions.  It was probably the biggest mistake I've make. Holding his freedom.  I'm sorry.  It's my fault.  Damn,  it's my fault.  I didn't sleep at all that night. Very confused and very much worried. My mind was tired. I forced myself to sleep for approximately 1 hour.  Everything was mighty blurry.  Had shower, had to move fast before anyone wakes up. ------------------------- ------------------------- ------

PART 2:

" dibalik segala duka tersimpan hikmah,yg bisa kita petik pelajaran
dibalik segala suka tersimpan hikmah, yg kan mungkin bisa jadi cobaan"------------------ ------------------------- --------

PART 3:

"Sayang, we have to go".  Driving with a good purpose.  To get away from it all.  Cash is running out fast.  Hold on to trusty Touch & Go.  We started our aimless journey.  It's a BIG step.  ------------------------- ------------------------- -------

PART 4

It was crazy and very much an unthinkable act.  The long winding road.  The cold breeze.  The journey.  It all make sense.  After leaving what we had encounter earlier, we were happy heading to a new profound glory.  The mood was different.  It feels like taking a break from life for a while.  Just being free and be with the one we love.------------------------- -----------

PART 5

Last night we was feeling like we were on top of the world.  Just the two of us strolling around hand in hand in a strange new place. The loud sounds of machines does not bother us one bit.  Nobody cares about anybody. The cool breeze + perfect atmosphere.  We were definitely free. Our mind and soul are free, surrounds by the freshest air ever.  The moment was ours. "If we have a time machine,  we'll go back to this moment".  It's our 9-11 moment. ------------------- ------------------------- -----

PART 6:

Something came up, we have to leave this beautiful place.  It's a sad thing to do. We are so trapped in a paranoia universe. Phones were bombarded with calls and messages. It's an uneasy feeling. Very2 uneasy. It's complicated. Please don't ruin this. It's been a while I haven't been this happy. "Don't say it's OK when it's not". "Then, what am I supposed to say?" . "Relax, eat and we will think about it". "Sometimes, to be with the one that you love you have to make difficult choices.  You have to make sacrifice".  Loose some win some situation.  We have to leave, but we are still together. nothing beats that at all. ------------------- ------------------------- ------------------------- -

PART 7:

As we leave, he holds my hand and sings this to me.

MATAHARI..MENYINARI SEISI BUMI …
SEPERTI ENGKAU...
MENYINARI… ROH DIDALAM JASADKU INI…
SELAMANYA… SEPERTI HUJAN ….
KAU BASAHI JIWA YANG KERING

REFF : HIDUP INI INDAH….BILA KU SELALU….
ADA DISISIMU SETIAP WAKTU….
HINGGA AKU HEMBUSKAN NAFAS..
YANG TERAKHIR…DAN KITA PUN BERTEMU

KAU… BAGAI UDARA YANG KUHIRUP
DISETIAP MASA.. ENGKAULAH DARAH
YANG MENGALIR DALAM NADIKU....REFF

MAAFKANLAH SLALU… SALAHKU
KARNA KAU MEMANG PEMAAF
DAN AKU HANYA … MANUSIA... REFF

.. HANYA KAU DAN AKU..DALAM AWAL DAN AKHIR..

p.s: beautiful, meaningful, fresh from the heart.  thank you sayang.------------------------- ---------------------

PART 8: 

The saddest part was leaving.  It tears up everything up.  We have to be strong.  First time, I've ever drive that far, ALONE.  He gave me strength to do the impossible.  Amazing.------------------------- ------------------------- ------------------

PART 9:

Alhamdulillah.  I arrived home in one peace.  Driving alone at night was a scary experience.  But I overcome it.  I'm proud of myself.------------------------- -------

PART 10:

To Whom It May Concern,

I'm so sorry I make both of u worried yesterday.  I'm sorry.  I was late.  Please trust me.  I didn't do anything wrong.  It's my choice and I'm taking full responsiblity of it.  I have to face this as an adult.  I never had the intention to hurt anybody.  I'm straightening out my life.  Trust me and support me please.------------------------- ------------------------- ---------

THE END