The One Where Jon Is Really Saucy
01.26.05 (2:59 pm) [edit]I watch MANHUNT on Star World (channel 70 on Astro) last night and I really thought Jon Jonsson is so damn saucy.... yummylicious to the max....
Jon Jonsson
I luv man with white cats. 100% drool factor (and that includes u too CINTA... no worries)
The One Where I'm Freaking Scared About My Life
01.20.05 (12:36 pm) [edit]the title does says it all...
I'm so scared... scared about the things that I want in my life... I have choose this path BUT why the hell I do have this little doubts bottling up in my head.. it's hurting my brain... ohh plzzz I don't wanna end up using some sort of temporary substance... yeah u heard it right... I'm on a verge on doing that....(hell I don't believe in taking any substance before).. just maybe this time I do need it to help me ease my mind and help me to sleep...
I couldn't sleep last nite.. thinking about my uncertain future... the future that I might never have with my love ones... HE WAS THERE FOR ME... Yes, he's life is so scruffy like now... Yes he's still sober... Yes I can't see where he was heading... but WHY DO I HAVE TO ACT like a selfish bitch who wants to know everything?... I'm so easily worried... It's making my head hurts...
Feel like living in some sort of darkness where I have to be so cool and calm BUT inside I was just feeling like a scared little girl.. Outside I was all brave, confident, friendly & never fail to put a smile on my face and I was a different person inside...(which I really hate).. she's searching her way out of me...
"She was insecure, she was unhappy, she needs to be love, she was scared, she was alone, she gave her all, she was dupe, she was cheated, she was given false hope, she was hurt, she was down, she absolutely need help from the God Almighty, she forgot her duty, she was drowned in another world, she needs assurance that everything would be okay, she need to get back to reality, she was LOST..."
I don't really know what to do.. it seems that staying in my room for the rest of my life would be a very good idea right now... I can't handle pressure very well.. the only good outcome from all this was I'm loosing weight rapidly... the kilos are dropping... I'm easily tired right now... hopefully with the strength that I have left I could move one with my life.. it's just another day...
The One Where It's 2005
01.04.05 (1:04 pm) [edit]Heyaaa peeps.. it’s been a long journey to the year 2005 and I do hope this year would bring everyone and of course myself the happiness that we always wanted. Say let me enlightened you with the few days that I spend before the clock stroke
I had an MC from work today because I had an appointment with my dentist. The appointment was at 11.30 but CINTA pick me up at about 11.35… humphhh.. he still needs to learn his time management (teddy.. just calm down.. breath in.. breath out…hiihihih)…
He apologies.. yeah yeah.. being so forgiving.. I’m so glad that he’s there for me.. accompanying me to the dentist… we was totally late though and yeah we’ve reached
Then we’ve found the dentist thru searching every damn floor there… the dentist was quite mad at me for the lateness (yeah.. yeah.. my mistake)… he was mad ‘cause I didn’t go to do my big tooth x-ray and he gave me referral forms to x-ray my whole mouth at Gleneagles Intan Hospital. Shoot.. what an experience… it was embarrassing and funny at the same time… the dentist was a bit stern and yeah I didn’t listen to his instruction anyway.. my bad I guess… So I ask CINTA to accompany me to the private hospital for my x-ray.
Before we go, we checked on the magazine stands, the DVD Shoppe, the rare CD shop and of course the best store of all Toys R Us. Weheeeee…. We feel like little kiddies again and again…. Hiihhihihi… that was fun. We were trapped there for a few hours…
Then off we go to the hospital. It was quite terrifying though. He was with me every second. Ahhh pity him though.. he doesn’t have much sleep.. And we didn’t eat anything from morning and that’s bad. He was patiently waiting with me by my side. It was a nice day for me J. He’s there for me that day.. I really appreciated it. After I’ve done x-raying my whole mouth we went out to have our grub. Met his kittens namely Batman and Weed… hiihihihih… I luuvv cats… they were really adorable…
He sends me home… and yeah he wants to accompany again to the next dentist appointment. The whole day was one hell of a good day…. I just love it for him to spend the whole day with me…. Well doing nothing mostly BUT it was the best thing so far…
Went out with my family at about 8.00.. our first intention was dinner at American Chilies but hell KLCC was packed with people even though there was no celebration allowed as to mark respect to the family and the victims of The Tsunami Tragedy. So went on to Roxy/Quicksilver shop (one of my fav store).. Gosh it was on sale…. Woweeee, bought myself new cool stuffs for the upcoming New Year…ihihihhi
There was no place at Chillies.. so we try out to Strudels.. still jam packed… then we moved along to The Boat at Kg Baru.. the whole placed was packed.. it was funny.. everybody seems to go out and eat that night…ihhiihih… my dad was upset cause of his grumbling tummy and almost end up in a fight with another guy..ihhihihi..scary I might say.. my mom and brothers was really hungry… at last our last resort was our trusted McDonalds…ihhihihihihi..
We had Prosperity Burger on the eve of New Year.. hmmm yummy it was good… phone lines were really busy that night… the phone traffic was congested… everybody seems generously enough to call each other up and wishing up the wishes. I can’t get CINTA that night.. just my sms to him…
It was the nicest end to the year of 2004…. With my family and loved ones attached to another…
Wakey.. wakey.. it’s New Year… my parents woke me up early.. they have planned to go to Nilai 3. Nilai 3 is a shopping haven for anyone who wishes to buy cheap and good stuffs. I love going there for t-shirt scavenging.. you could find RM10 t-shirt with cool designs on it… my cousin Nasha and aunt tag along… Nasha was looking for her “hantaran” ideas for her upcoming August wedding…
The journey was approximately 40 minutes from my house. My mom bought some stuffs for tok.. I bought stuff toys.. my bro bought t-shirts.. We were there for almost 4 hours.. it was tiring… CINTA called up and said Batman was missing.. ohh gosh.. sweet li’l kitten was gone.. he sound so frustrated and devastated… ahh poor CINTA.. if my cat was missing I would be freaking worried too…
Met him up later on that day.. he looked tired and confused.. Weed was all alone… she was looking for Batman.. she doesn’t seem happy and she wouldn’t eat… ahhh it was a sad.. sad event… even CINTA don’t have the mood to talk and do anything… he was mourning and yeah I could see his eyes were getting wet… He was there for me before and it’s time for me to do the same for him… We had our moments and I’m gonna cherished that forever.. I stayed in accompanying him.. he can’t be alone at this moment…
He wants to send me home that he heard a familiar sound of his kitten meowing. He was so afraid that Batman was captivated and being locked in one of the houses. Ironically, we’ve found Batman hanging on the roof… she was probably lost her way home.. took her back to meet Weed. He’s glad Batman was ok.. I’m glad he’s smiling again… J.. It’s been an adventures day.. the very first day of 2005…
It was Sunday and I was really tired.. when back quite late and my dad was quite angry.. I’m sorry.. didn’t do anything much today.. just went out for grocery shopping.
Nuthing much interesting.. just like any other day…
Yesterday was ok.. but my tummy was not.. it hurts a lot and I just hang on at work… my brother had his long hair cut cause my mom hates his long hair.. sheshh mom.. wait till you see CINTA’s hair…ihhihihihi.. much more longer and much more messier… ihhihihihi… sort of like Lion-o from behind (that cartoon character of Thundercats..) ..hiihhi.. she will be so freaked out then… J..
That sums up almost everything I guess... say it's not TOO late to say Happy New Year to all of you out there right??... and yes.. plzzz do donate to the Tsunami Funds.. plzz do help those people for a brighter start of 2005.
& nbsp; &n bsp; "May Allah bless our earth always.. please keep us safe from harm. Amin."