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The One Where The Graduation Day is tomorrow.....

sheshhh... how I abandon my blog and I'm so damn missing my blog so much....

it's been hard... life has..

I'm so confused... still am confuse

arghhhh... it just sucks everything out...

my positive vibes are running really low...

i'm just so sad...

hate being in this situation..

I just hate it.... :(

geez... wish everything would be fine..

I hate to PRETEND that everything is going fine

p.s: the graduation would be tomorrow and I do wish all the best to the students.

The One Where I Am So Confused

heyaaa everybody... hope it's NOT too late to wish all you out there a Selamat Hari Raya...

Raya this year was quite different.. it's the first time that we've celebrate it without Mak Ngah.. but everybody could sense her presence.. miss her though..

I had mix feelings situation with my so-called relationship.. feel so much awkward.. feel strange.. fell like I don't know what to do.. seems that NO one really understands... feel like I'm all alone...

I'm SO damn confused.. may GOD help me thru this difficult times of my life.. yeah they did say that before you turn 25.. there's a lot of challenge that we have to go thru.. (it's odd but it's true..)..

maybe before reaching my mid 20's I have to go thru all these phases of life turbulation... 

my heart hurts so does my head.. and I don't think that is so healthy.. I do wish that I have all the strength to face all this.

The One Where I Jump Into Conclusion

Well I jump into the bandwagon too soon,

He was NOT the ONE..

He was just PASSING BY..

He was NOT mine...

He was RESPONSIBLE for what I've gone through

He was CRUSHING my heart..

He was an ASSHOLE

and

I was TOO DUMB to know

I was STUPID to BELIEVE

I was OBEYING his rules

I was WEAK

I was BEING USED

could I be blamed for all this??????

ALL I EVER DID WAS:

FALLING in LOVE

The One Where "HE" Came Back

HE came back...

hmmmm... everything seems so awkward for me for these few days..

I'm simply LOST 

I don't know what's wrong...

I should be happy right???..  I should..

I deserve to be...

He's the ONE...

I don't really know wut to do...

ouch...

It's been too damn long...

I'm too numb to do anything...

Don't know what to expect...

BUT I do miss him so much though....

Hope this coming raya would bring me joy & miracles...

I've been on a sad journey...

I need sumthing....

The One Where I Was Dizzy

hmm... I feel so tired today.. I don't know why.. but I just do.. feel a lot dizzy.. maybe just maybe I can't get my eyes to shut last nite... my brothers was quarelling with each other.. damn... the quarell was mainly about who's turn is it to play the game... sheshh.. that was pretty lame... it was almost 4 in the morning and I can't even sleep with all the commotion... arghhhhhh

so today my head was kinda spinning and I feel so like throwing up throughout the day... I hope today I get the rest that I needed...

I've been chatting with Mr Airil today which I thought I would not do in a million years.. it's cool to chat up with your old mates because both of you know each other so it's saves time on the intro part which bores me sometimes...

I didn't mean that I hate making new friends but I just love hang out and chat with the ones that I've already know... much more convinient..

alrighty it's almost 5.. time to pack up and leave...

adios

The One Where I Remembered Jem

Well I don't really know what really happened to me yesterday but I was really interested to search about "Jem and The Holograms".. it was a popular cartoon show in the late 80's...(hey I was an 80's child...)

The story is about Love, Glamour, & Rock N' Roll. It is a story of a girl with a double identity. Off stage, she is Jerrica Benton, Co-Executive at Starlight Music. On stage, she is Jem -- the popular, sexy, rock diva. Even with the tough competition of "The Misfits," Jem's most loathed rival band, Jem & the Holograms always manage to score victory.  

every girl in town just wanna be like Jem..

Jerrica Benton and her ultra-ego Jem

she had this fabulous pink hair and her bandmates was having all sort of multiple colours for their hair-do .. let me introduce them to you..

Her sister Kimber (Keyboardist), Aja (Guitarist), Shana (Drums)

    & nbsp;

Raya (New Drummer)    ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; Synergy

her nemesis a.k.a The Misfits.

Pizzazz(lead singer)        & nbsp;  Roxy (guitarist)  &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;   Stormer (drums)

Jetta (saxaphone)  &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         C lash (Misfits Groupies)  &nbs p;   Eric Raymond (Band Manager)

even her boyfriend, Rio had purple hair..ihhiihih...

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;    Rio "The Hunk"

it was really nice to see the "taboo" thing around that era...ihihihih... Jem was a special cartoon and has a major following mostly girls... what's so special about it you may asked??.. it's all about the drama, friendship, conflict and love... and every episode has it's own music video... she has this star shape shocking-pink earing which can transform her from Jerrica Benton to the singing sensation Jem.. (ihihhi.. I could remember when everybody in school was doing her action...girls would press their earlobes and said "Synergy")... hihihihiihihhi

damn that was the good old days... Jem's voice was really sultry, sexy and really nice... awwww....I just love it...I was keen enough to know who was the brilliant singer behind the success of Jem... yeah...found it.. her name is Britta Phillips...

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   

    & nbsp; Britta In her Jem days   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;  Britta now

She's really pretty... and she has her own band.. so you guys out there miss the voice of Jem just check her out at www.brittaphillips.com

it was really nice to remember all those good times back then... ahhhh.. time has changed tremendously over the years... me and my fascination...ihhihihiih... damn I want those Jem dvd's..hiihihih

p.s: kudos for this site http://www.angelfire.com/la/Holograms/index.html" title="http://www.angelfire.com/la/Holograms/index.html" target="_blank"http://www.angelfire.com/la/H...  for giving me all the information that I needed about mt favourite cartoon of all time..

The One Where I break My Fast Outside

It was the 21st day of Ramadhan... wow how time really flies... one of the seniors was grateful enough to treat us for a scrumptious feast at Thai Corner Restaurant... it was the first time for this month of Ramadhan that I get the chance to break my fast outside (usually I went straight back home and eat..)..

One of the seniors was kindly enough to treat us for the berbuka puasa feast...(he had receive and ample amount of bonus I presumed..)..hiihih.. so off we go (ehemm... the six of us altogether... no wild gossips plzzz...) to the restaurant which was nearby our office.

The place was small but the ambience was nice and cozy.. hmmm... let me see what did we had...hmmmm..
ohh yeah... there's the tom yam soup for the main dish, sweet and sour siakap, garlic chicken, kangkong belachan and mango kerabu... yum..yum.. it was simply delicious... then for dessert we have tup tim grop, a Thai delicacy which consist of coconut milk, ice shavings, syrup and red jelly sengkuang... damn... it was sweet and refreshing....

thank you again Che Wan for the lovely dinner.. me and my collegues was really thankful for it...

p.s: is it me or free dinner tasted really good???.. ahaks :).. oh yeah the ice lemon tea was superb...

The One Where I'm On The Verge of Being a Guitar Addict