Sunny June Tuesday......
06.01.04 (1:36 pm) [edit]waheyyyyyy..... on top of the morning to yaa... It`s already June.. gosh how time flies really damn fast.. I haven`t accomplished anything major yet in my life... (like getting married and have tons of kids... ihhiihih...) yeah yeah I should be thankful that I've graduated. (Thanks a lot Miss H*** for making my life miserable and a few others too... just one freaking day I pray that your children will go through the hassle of being treated like a jack-ass-dummy for a long time..... :twisted: ). I'm NOT cruel people... but she made me like this... so BLAME her... ahaks... ohhh well life goes on.....
Yesterday was really boring.... one boring Monday.. I have no mood wutsoever to work... I just browse around the net looking for fun materials to amuse me.. I`m not talking about porn people.... ihhiihhi…. I just love Jai from Queer Eye For The Straight Guy... He's so fun, animated and well you guess it..pretty much Gay... I search for his information and I was lead to a really gross out celebrity chat website where every actor in Tinseltown was absolutely GAY… ihhiih… I don`t really know if the chat was true.. BUT it’s FREAKY!... Imagine this, I found out that Hayden Christensen (young Darth Vader) is Carson Kellsons boyfriend (he’s the fashion guru for the Queer Eye), Scott Moffatts was also involved with Milo Ventigmila (Rory’s bf from the Gilmore’s Girl), Thom Felicia (the interior designer for Queer Eye) was Mrs. Jude Law… and there’s the very cute Orlando Bloom…everyone’s favourite fairy, namely Legolas….he’s involved with one of the hobbits.. I can’t conform if it’s Merry or Pippin… errrrr…. I have too much free time I guess… I’ve been reading junks all day…but hey it was fun to kill my time…..
Yeah! It payday yesterday…wut’s odd was we were told that this month we got it early and will have to bear the consequences for next month. Well… to tell you the truth, I’m starting to hate my job. Maybe this is the work pressure that people keep telling me about. This is more than pressure… I’ve been an overwork-underpaid moron for quite a while.. I need to upgrade myself… Be with a company that appreciates my dedication and work… I need to be treated fairly… I never felt that here… not once… there’s no future wutsoever for me here… I’ve been working for a year and I have no savings at all. I still depends much on my parents… lucky I’m a gurl haaa?... I have my pride.. I want to be INDEPENDENT for a change… I want to be able to have my own stuffs… like owning a car… I can’t even support myself.. wut can you possibly do with just RM1000 in hands these days???... The answer is : NOT MUCH AT ALL!... Below are the lists of my expenses for every damn month:
1. Pocket Money (Tok & Bro) RM 120.00
2. Phone Bill Maxis RM 50.00
3. Transport (LRT Season Pass) RM 125.00
4. Flea Money (Kutoo) RM 50.00
5. Staff Fund RM 20.00
6. MARA RM 100.00
7. Eat-eat (4 weeks) RM 200.00
8. Magazines/ daily papers RM 30.00
9. Toiletries RM 100.00
10. Knick knacks RM 50.00
11. Misc.(Movies/eat out) RM 100.00
BIG TOTAL = RM 945.00
Money that I can breathe in = RM 1000.00 – 945.00
= RM [b]55.00[/b]
Gosh… RM 55 left for me every month…. Ironically.. I can’t even pay or rent a room with that… yeah I can’t even get a descend shoes wit that much either… I need to have a better job that pays well… I’m not being selfish and leave my students behind BUT Is it wrong to choose the way I wanted my life to be??.... I have NEEDS… I have the right to have what I want… I need to move fast… really fast… really damn fast….
I’ve found myself RM 17.00 today on my way to the office… the money was scattered in front of a bank…hihihiih…. Maybe it’s my day… gosh… I’m a bit skeptic on using that money to buy myself some food… well maybe I just donate that money to someone else… I feel guilty rather than lucky… poor that someone who loose those change… I don’t know wut to do wit it?... Any ideas????.....
I have a meeting now… later….
p.s: special thanks to Nazri.. 4 just being a good fwen of mine… and being my mom’s other son.. that means ur my other brother…hmmmm…. I’m one confused gurl..hihihiihhi
Wrap things up
05.31.04 (7:30 pm) [edit]It`s Monday and I`m sleepy, hungry and my tummy had a bit of tantrums. I`ll just wrap up wut had happened to me on Friday evening until last Sunday.
On Friday evening, exactly at 6.30 p.m (Shah Village), I went to the Radio Survey 2004 and it was lots of fun…. So wut do I have to do to get a clasp of RM50…just listen to a total of 380 snippets of songs for merely 10 seconds and just tick the numbers between 1 to 5. 1 for the “I really hate this f**king song” to number 5 for the “This number is one of my favourite”. I had fun just doing it. I went with Wanna and met another gurl, Baizura. We tick up the numbers and we pick up our token. Talk about easy money. (I need that cash.. I was totally broke… I know I won`t get my pay till the first week of June… cheapskates *&^%%^&)
Wut was the deal anyway??... spend a few hours and get free dosh….I was a bit skeptic at first, thinking that people would pay for this kind of service. A few years back, Nani told me about this type of paid surveys. And I was thinking, wut kind of work would you do for about 2 hours and get paid RM50 to RM60. That`s kinda nut… Thinking that people would do ugly stuffs to me. I didn`t go for that coffee survey discussion. Don’t blame me I was scared.
Then a few weeks back. Aunty Ida asked me if I want to join this type of survey discussions, hmmm… I was really interested and the major thing was I trusted her. TRUST people…u got to have the TRUST.. I was a bit scared so I asked her if I could let my friend joined in… Aunty Ida agrees.. so I just asked Phatana out. It’s great that she wants to join and yeah I got to spend a bit time with her. But the main catch here was… we have to ignored each other and act like a total strangers …ihhihihi.. Damn it was hard…. But everything turns out ok… I really enjoy the discussion about a “certain-quite-famous furniture store here in Malaysia. The attendees were about 8 people and there was the facilitator cum researcher. We got to introduced our self and those people are all professionals. One lady was a lawyer, one in a real-estate business, one was an accounts teacher and some are doing their own business and yeah me and Phatana was just merely working as u know mgmt. trainee and me one lousy educator. Feel a bit left out at first but there are all nice individuals. Damn… no cute guys available… :(. The discussion went out smoothly and very much informative. I enjoy every bit of it as I do talk a lot.
People say that first experience will always have the best feelings and yeah you won’t forget the moments easily. I had tons of fun and yeah RM120 richer… The survey lasted about 3 to 4 hours and left me tired.
Had a brief of discussion with Phatana on our journey back to Jelatek. We thought that the discussions was fun and we do think that the organizer was smart enough man… concentrated ideas from users… and spend out a little amount consider that they will have millions of fortune derived from it. Concentrate on wut user really wants.. that`s the main key. Being a guinea pig for the benefits of all consumers… Wut the heck… we got our share.. just shut our mouth laaa… hiihihih
I`m really looking forward for these kinds of surveys… I`m addicted to it… I`m in for the moneyyyyy…..
On Saturday, I can`t remember much wut I did. I just sleep a lot. My world of happiness is my very own bedroom. It`s really damn messy… stuffs are all over the place.. cd’s clattered on the floor, books everywhere, clothes hanging around all sorts of places, dusts starts to fill the empty spot.. thick dust.. hiihhihi… it`s an officially a pig sty.. Not a place for a gurl to sleep in.. My parents are really mad at me… (luckily the renovation gave me a lot of reasons not to indulged myself in doing any cleaning). I have no time people… I`m so suck in time management… I rather watch TV 24 hours then do any cleaning. I`m not focus enough. But when I`m focus… I give out my all. Well back to my room, no matter how it looks like, no matter how untidy it was.. it`s MINE.. my own private Idaho.. hiihih.. I`m gonna get a bigger room after the renovation and I`m all excited. Thinking about having my own movie/game room. It`s gonna be a blast and I will have my own hype space… I just can`t wait….
On Sunday,..well like every other Sunday, me and my family went out to see my brother in UiTM for the National Service thingy. He looks awful at the beginning when he started the service but now he seems a lot happier I might say. Another week to go bro… another week.. just hang in there… Had a brief argument with my parents.. yeah yeah regarding my “ohh-so-beautiful-room … I’m a big egoistic. I can`t believe I can’t take small statements from my dad and mum.. Being childish I might say… When they hell I`m gonna grow up… I`m still a child at heart.. child at mind.. ahrggg… I`m so confuse.. I`m sorry mom..I`m sorry pa… for acting that way.. arghhh how I wish I should tell them how I am really sorry. I just can`t do it… I couldn`t understand it. I`m sorry…..
when I woke up this morning.. everything was fine as usual.. sumtimes I do wonder why should I acted like an a** ?.. I love my family damn much... that won`t change...